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November 2009
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Sat, Jul. 12th, 2008 10:28 pm
update

wow, so i haven't written in this in like... uhhhh... ages...
anyway
im not going to go into details about where i am in life right now... im just going to vent how i feel, because thats what i came here for

i am extremely upset and lonely... why? because i am so happy
ha
isn't that odd?
i love eric so much, he seriously has no idea... he is my everything
and its funny, cause there are days when he drives me absolutely fucking crazy and i just want him to leave me the hell alone, but when it all comes down to it, i HATE when he leaves me alone.... yea, maybe for like an hour or two leave me alone, but never REALLY leave me alone... like this weekend... ugh
i was suppose to go away with my pledge class and it canceled out, well since i was going to be doing that, eric made other plans, and since now im not going.. hes still going to camp, and i cant go because i have to work... so i am home alone.. and not even home alone, but without Opie even... AH! i am ultimately depressingly alone right now... oh its awful
which is why im writing, to keep my mind off of it.. ha, how ironic. but if i think about it, i start to ball because i seriously miss eric that much, its crazy, him being away, and its only been 12 hours.. i am miserable.
i love him so much, i hope we're together for ever and he never leaves me... i really hope this one works out, i don't think i've ever been this crazy in love before, like i've never been this upset about having to sleep alone. but sometimes we get in some serious fights and i get scared that it isn't going to work, us... but then i just think of how it'd be without him, and i never want that
i show my affection to him differently.. but i love him so much
i just hope he knows that.
i really hope he does.

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