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Mon, Jul. 24th, 2006 05:04 pm
so i have this HUGE crush on this kid, his name is Markus
and i have known him since i was 15, and i have always had this thing for him
and the weirder thing is, we met online, and we have never met in person
but for the past 6... almost 7 years
we have kept in touch and have been talking
isn't that amazing?
well finally, i decide, i am going to go visit him
so i made the plans, i am going aug 12, 13, 14
but i have been thinking about it, and i don't think its a good idea
the reason i have never visited him before, is because we never really keep in touch on a regular basis, he is very busy
and its drives me crazy
when you care about someone, you want to call them and talk to them, and you don't ignore there text messages
well we have been talking more lately, but i wish we could talk everyday
but the thing is, he has his own business, tons of friends, and a girlfriend
and when we first started talking again recently
he told me how he felt about his girlfriend, he likes her, but hes not amazed by her, and by being with her, he thinks he would be settling
and they have only been together 8 months, and its been on and off
and i wrote to him and told him i didn't think she was good enough looking for him, but that was probably because i was just jealous, and he wrote this back to me'
"Haha...your so cute!
Yes she is a great girl, but like I said no "WOW!" factor. "
meaning shes nothing too special to him
but then i got to thinking, if this girl wasn't really anything special to him
why hasn't he broke up with her already???
so when i go visit... does he expect something to happen between us? because i am not about to be the person who helps him cheat on his girlfriend
and then, what if i go there and i do really like him.. a lot? when i come back here, hes just gonna be too busy for me again and i'm gonna get upset
so i don't really even know if its worth me going
i think its gonna end up being more painful

but then i got to thinking, maybe we'll really hit it off, i'll never know unless i go
and i don't go, i'm gonna be thinking... what if?

so i decided i'm going, but before i'm not going to be all over him unless he breaks up with his girlfriend, because thats just not right

look at what he wrote to me
"First of all...Wow! Second of all...Wow!
Aren't you the looker...now I know why every boy from Buffalo to Syracuse wants to date you.

Seriously though you are beautiful and I'm feeling a little left out. I see you smiling and being cute in all your pictures, but I'm not in a single one! "


i am crazy about him... i just wish he felt the same way about me
maybe he does, maybe he is just ridiculously busy
but i do really like him a lot
and when i go there, i hope it works out

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jencore
jencore
::jencore::
Wed, Jul. 26th, 2006 03:39 am (UTC)

that's funny, i think i remember you talking about him in high school? haha.

maybe it'll be nothing, maybe you'll hang out and be like "oh, this is weird. and i don't think i like him like that." orrrr maybe not. haha.

either way, good luck!


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xxmookiexx
xxmookiexx
MOOkiE
Wed, Jul. 26th, 2006 08:58 am (UTC)

yes i did talk about him in highschool! haha, cause i was obsessed with him
yea... thats what i was thinking, what if he smells or something? i don't know, haha
but thanks jen!
it was nice to hear from you, hope all is well


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